Part 2

Ok so Im standing there alone trying to figure out what just happened and why me???

Long story short I started drinking and doing drugs and before I knew it I ended up losing my kids.. and myself for that matter. Everything was happening so fast. When that happened I was self destructing quickly. Started using the needle and anything else I could get my hands on to not feel what I was feeling. Losing my whole family it felt like overnight... And I used to not deal with it which later bit me in the ass. But anyways I was at a friend's house and in walked Brad Barrs....! We saw each other for the first time and it was like no one else was in the room.... Mind you I'm at a dark place in my life at that point and in walked my light! We started out no problems. and I know now he just wanted to save me... He never would give up on me and said he never would and He kept his word! So fast-forward a few yrs. Went by and we then knew that we were better off friends. I don't know if I can do this Stephanie 😞 I'm trying .... I'm sorry I miss him so much. And this is hard for me. But he always had a way with words and those 2 page text messages that could calm me down and somehow make everything better. Until I got a call from a friend of mine with the news that he was gone.... Just like that... I thought it was gonna kill me. Everything every minute of us being together started running through my head. Sum good and sum upsetting. but I calmly got ahold of Stephanie smith who's brads best friend! Closes person to him and just hearing her voice telling me that she would help me get there no matter what and that everything was gonna be ok was like being held underwater and when u finally get that breath of relief and knew everything was going to be ok. So I finally make it to Florida and I get a text message from one of my kids saying that he would like to meet up and see me.... !!!!!! After 10 years of not being around him. Not by choice might I add . U can only imagine the excitement the emotions I felt at that moment. I had finally found Hope again and felt like I had a reason a purpose to live again. Cuz I was really confused about why am I here. Why am I still alive. Well long story and I've skipped a lot to try not to board y'all. Lol but I had hell trying to get to Florida to see him. But with the help of some every good friends who I'll be forever great full for and will never forget what they did for me. Stephanie, Moochie , Daryl, Steven and Gary A.K.A puss. Y'all don't know what y'all mean to me! I'll never forget what y'all did for me to make that happen so I could see my kid. Everyone of u I would literally give my life for without hesitation. I'm very blessed to have y'all and from the bottom of my heart thank y'all.

To be continued......

Stay tuned.... Lol